Friday, July 31, 2009

Rude Dr.

Why would I like to publish a post with a title like that? That's because I heard a story from my mom and felt that that doctor should be blammed for her rude manner towards the patients.
The story bagan with an almost geriatric female patient, Mrs. X who unfortunately had a Stage II breast cancer and needed to undergo a total of 8 cycles of chemotherapy. As we all know, chemotherapy is a very tough and suffering process. Most cancer patients suffer physically and mentally while undergoing the chemotherapy.
That day, Mrs X needed to undergo the 3rd cycle of chemotherapy. As the white blood count of Mrs X was low, she needed to stay in the hospital to be injected a drug (I don't know the name, sorry...) to boost up the amount of white blood cells. Then, the next morning, the blood test of Mrs X showed that her white blood count was sufficient for her to undergo chemotherapy. Therefore, the doctor asked Mrs X to be ready for chemotherapy. The clock showed that it was 8am so the breakfast was distributed to all the in-patients at that time. Mrs X felt hungry and saw the doctor was still handling other chemotherapy cases, so she started to have the breakfast first. Right after Mrs X had the second bite on her breakfast, came the doctor here with a very fierce face.
She asked rudely," Why do you eat breakfast? I don't have much time to wait you. Don't you see that I have a bundle of patients to be settled to undergo chemotherapy?"
Mrs X was shocked by this doctor and explained in a low voice," I just saw you attend to other patients, so I planned to eat first as I felt very hungry..."
The doctor then blammed," don't you feel that you are just like someone from 'kampung' place who have never eaten this kind of food before?"
This blamming sounded very sarcastic and Mrs X felt very embarrased being humiliated by such a doctor. Mrs X then stopped eating and let the doctor to do the antiemetic injection before conducting the chemotherapeutic drugs infusion. The doctor started to inject Mrs X with the antiemetic drugs at a very fast rate. Mrs X yelled at pain and then asked,"Can doctor inject this drug slower? It is painful. Last time, the other doctor injected it slowly and it was not painful."
This doctor was pissed off by Mrs X's words and shouted out," if you want that doctor to inject you, then you ask that doctor to inject you. You don't need me!" Mrs X was stunned by her attitude. She could only keep quiet as she didn't want to make this doctor angry again. Afterall, her life was still on the hand of that doctor.
While on chemo drugs infusion, the doctor needed to find the blood vessel to insert the needle into the blood vessel. However, it's not as easy as usual because the chemo drugs before could cause the blood vessel to sink. It's not easy to find a suitable blood vessel. Therefore, the doctor needed to try and error to inject few times. This made the whole chemotherapy process very painful. Each time the doctor injected and took out the needle, Mrs X would shout out in pain. Each time she shouted out in pain, the doctor would scold her to shut up because this caused her could not concentrate to inject. Mrs X felt very stressful throughout the whole chemo process and kind of blammed herself why she would suffer this kind of disease. The chemotherapy already made her very ill and in fact she needed to meet this kind of doctor. This made her even more afraid of undergoing chemotherapy next time.
So, that's the end of the story. I really feel that a doctor should be responsible to her attitude towards the patients. I know that a doctor's job is very busy and stressful, but at least she should take care of her emotion and attitude towards the patients. Most patients also feel vey stressful about their disease and some even feel depressed about it. In fact, that doctor is just an ordinary GP and already very arrogant and emotional. Shame her to be a Chinese. Hence, hopefully my future doctor friends will not behave like that rude doctor when they work in future. It's really a shame!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Thesis

What is a thesis? A thesis is a document that presents the author's research and findings and is submitted in support of candidature for a degree or professional qualification. This intepretation is just like a heavy important responsibility for an undergraduate. However, as for me, thesis is nothing but a fussy trouble. Thesis is just a "rojak" of many journals in the forms of "gaya UKM" (after doing literature review). Until now, i'm still wonder why we need to do thesis in order to get a degree although i know that ongoing research is required to improve our society. It's pointless!!!
I do my thesis in the aspect of clinical study in HUKM, a hospital far from where i stay (in my perspective only). Therefore, i think that it is troublesome for me to go to HUKM to collect data every Thursday and Friday as it is a long journey for me. But, this can be considered a little problem as it is because of my laziness. What make me feel really troublesome is that until now, i'm still very confused and blurred about what I'm doing now for my thesis. I'm not confident for each work i have done for my thesis. Maybe people can say that if you are unsure about your thesis, you can always refer to your "beloved" supervisor, who is an expert in conducting research. Yes, of course i can do that. However, when i met my supervisor last Thursday to discuss my thesis, everything turned down for me.
At that meeting, I found out that my supervisor was quite blurred and forgetful (just like me) about my thesis. She asked me about my sample. I told her the number of patients and those data were from year 2007. Maybe you will feel quite strange and wonder why i conduct a study on patients in year 2007. (That is because the casemix department cannot provide 2008 data). I myself also feel puzzled about that and in last semester I already asked her about the permission to do thesis on patients in year 2007 . At that time, she said that i could do that but last Thursday she seemed to forget what she has said and on contrarily she asked me back why i did the research on patients in year 2007 but not 2008. I felt stoned by what she asked. Then, she asked me why i did on such a small sample. I actually told her about this sample size problem last semester that the casemix department could only provide this number of patients. At that time, she said that that should not be a problem as casemix department data is a strong evidence for my sample size. I used the same explanation to answer her question. However, this time, her attitude was not like last semester before. She asked me to find a suitable explanation and debate myself for my sample size.
The next thing she told me was the most devastated one. My thesis was actually quite same with a senior's thesis last year and that senior managed to get more samples than me. That's the first thing that worried me. Then, she told me that my objectives were quite similar with that senior's and I needed to figure out new add-on objectives different from that senior's. Huh!!! That's really troubling me as I already started in a half way for my thesis! Why she did not tell me earlier about this? Why she did not inform me in last semester before i did my proposal? Can I blame her? Of course cannot!!! what to do? she is still my supervisor to judge whether I can graduate.
Hence, until now, I'm still confused about my thesis. I will not blame anyone because this thesis is my very own stuff. I haven't also found new objectives for my thesis. I dare not to face it. It is disgusting for me. Therefore, to those who think that i'm steady and "senang-lenang" about my thesis, stop thinking of me like that. Afterall, I'm just a lazy person who is not interested or even hate to do thesis. I do not expect too much for my thesis as long as i can get a C for my thesis. Who cares about the pointers as my pointers now are already pretty bad. I just hope that I can graduate on time. Anyway, to those who strive for thesis, wish you all can get your targetted results for your thesis and also wish me not to fail in thesis.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Intro

Hi... I'm Lim Kek Chuong, an ordinary Pharmacy undergraduate, with nothing special and extraordinary throughout my life. I'm not expert in writing a very flowerish or touching blog but at least this is the place for me to express my experiences or stress or angers or opinions in words whenever possible. If you read my blog, hopefully you can post out some comments for my blog regardless it is a good or bad comment. I would be very much appreciated and thankful for your comments.